She was an overly curious Black girl in an Appalachian family that only rewarded piety. He was a Welsh pop star thirty years her senior, surrounded by supermodels and slipping post-structuralist theory into pop lyrics. Obviously, they were soulmates. Or so she thought.
In October 2021, Tabatha flew to England alone, heart pounding, armed with a lifelong crush and two tickets to an anniversary concert. Two days later, she arrived back in Philadelphia—even more alone, bruised, and reeling from a sexual assault by a stranger.
This solo hour traces the journey through the absurd mechanics of survival; from childhood obsessions and the cruelty of being ignored, to the disorienting comedy of trying to explain it all. With a relentless need to understand, Tabatha dives into the humor and heartbreak of what happened, how language failed her, and why—against all odds—she’s still laughing.
How Do I Hold It? is written and performed by Tabatha Myers. It premiered at the 2025 Hollywood Fringe Festival.